Sunday, October 16, 2011

Back 2 steps

Well my first weekend in was a fail! What made me think I could take spam musubi and hot dog as bento and stay on the right path. Planning ahead really is the key. I keep looking for the easy way out and so far I haven't found it. I guess that's telling me something! Well tomorrow is a new day! Baby steps! Goal for tomorrow... WATER!

Friday, October 14, 2011

Little less Gloppy

Made it through Day 2 and I have a HUGE goal in sight! Hubby said that if I lose 50 lbs, I can buy an iPad!!! Its ON.

So I did good through most of the day. Sausage/cheese omelet for breakfast, almonds for snack, tuna wrap for lunch, and kaki mochi (not so good) for snack. I noticed yesterday that my biggest crash was in the afternoon so I ate the kaki mochi right when I started feeling bad. The headache was a little smaller but i was still feeling gloppy, a little nauseous, and a little bit dizzy. Hopefully that goes away, but it just goes to show how out of control I've been.

Dinner was another story. Going out to eat is really a weakness for me! We ended up at Black Bear Diner and I settled on a tri-tip/BBQ pork ribs combo. At the time it sounded too good to pass up, but I know that BBQ sauce was bad. Then I couldn't pass up the cornbread. Bad again. I'm pretty disappointed in myself.... but things aren't gonna change overnight.

So far, breakfast and snacks seem to be the hardest the figure out a menu for. I can't do eggs everyday, and I can only handle so much nuts! Grrrr! But this journey HAS to be successful. I can't afford to let this get worse.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Gloppy the Molasses Monster

I really feel like Gloppy today!!!! Started out great and in a good mood about this adventure. I had scrambled egg beaters and vienna sausages for breakfast, almonds for snack, a Muscle Milk light for lunch and more almonds for dessert. I feel like CRAP!!! I haven't taken my blood sugar but I'm guessing my sugar is relatively low compared to what it usually is. I have a headache, I'm exHausted, and I'm snippy! I actually ate a few of my daughter's animal crackers cause I thought I was going to die! (Okay, a slight exaggeration... but not much). As for my weight... I weighed in this morning and I'm starting at 219. I figure there's no better way to stay accountable than to publicize my weight!!! Here is a picture of my bottle of muscle milk!


Wednesday, October 12, 2011

From the beginning

How did I get here? What was I thinking? I could beat myself up all day but the bottom line is that I have to start somewhere and the journey to better health starts now. I am 34 years old, severely overweight (I'm not ready to post my weight), have uncontrolled diabetes, and am on high blood pressure medications. If I continue the way I've been living, I will end up blind, losing a limb, suffering a stroke and/or heart attack, and being cared for by someone else... All by the age of 50. In this moment at 9:09 pm on October 12th 2011, I make a promise to myself and to my family to refuse to let that happen. This blog will keep me accountable to that promise. I Will defeat Candyland!